Too many things on my mind

First of all, I couldn't sleep because I napped for 3 hours!
Anyways, the main reason I couldn't sleep is the feeling of failure that I am not driving yet and I'm already 20! I don't really even know what is preventing me not to take the test yet. Well, I failed taking the writing test for 5 times...that pretty much explains it. I really need to start driving soon because I feel really bad for relying on my dad all the time to give everyone rides. I'm the oldest sister in my remaining family at home rite now, and I should definitely start driving!

OK...second reason why? I'm confused and I'm tired of waiting for him to make a move. I want a crystal clear answer. Does he like me or not? Although he seemed to have interest in me before, ever since he came back from Burma, he changed so much. I can't believe I liked him for 5 months already. How can I like someone so much? I think he knows that I have feelings for him. Is that the reason why he doesn't like me? Or is it because I've had bf before? Or is he just too shy to make a move? These questions keep on repeating in my head everyday and I could never get a question answered.

He asked me out three times, but only got to go with him twice. Only if he would ask me out again... only if he'd say anything to be his gf ... BUT~----~
The best option would be if I can forget him... Please at least let me just forget him if it's impossible for him to like me --